Tuesday, August 11, 2009

It Takes Time.

I know you miss him and I know you think you can’t be without him. I know he told you he loved you and I know he said he’d never leave. I know although you knew you shouldn’t have believed that, you did and I know you want him more than anything. I know you spend extra time doing your makeup and hair perfect just in case he looks your way and I know secretly, you want to bump into him anywhere you go. I know you get that feeling when you walk past him and I know you just want him to look your way. I know he called you his baby and his number one and I know he told you he loved you at the end of each of his texts. I know he told you after he’s caused you so much pain. I know your face lights up at the mention of his name and I know that you were his world and I know he made you happy. I know you re-read the saved texts from him that you should of deleted ages ago and I know you can’t figure out what’s making you still like him so much even you’re scared to talk about him to your friends because you don’t want them to know how amazing he is. I know you still get that tingle feeling if he so much as looks as though he’s looking your way and I know that the whole day you’ll be analyzing what that look meant. I know you know he used you and I know you always forgave him for all his faults no matter what. I know you smile bigger, talk louder and laugh more when you see him anywhere near and I know that’s because you just want him to notice you again. I know you compare every guy to him and I know you’d do anything to prove your love for him. I know you take out his mistakes out on everyone but him and I know you don’t mean to. I know you read your saved YM conversations you had with him every night and I know you cry every time. I know you think you won’t care for anyone as much as you care for him and I know you tell everyone you’re ‘obviously’ over him. I know that you don’t know that I can see right through that. I know you listen to the songs that remind you of him every night and I know you cry yourself to sleep. I know you’d do anything to be perfect for him and I know if it meant you had to stab yourself the next day after seeing him, if it meant spending a whole day with him, you’d do it. I know you can’t figure out what’s so different about him to all the other guys you’ve been with previously and I know he’s the reason you look in the mirror too much. I know you get that feeling every time you get a text, just because of the slight chance it might be him and I know anyone can see the hurt in your eyes when you find out it isn’t. I know you can’t figure out why he left you and I know you’ll never get an answer to that question. I know that. Trust me. Now listen. I know he doesn’t miss you and I know he doesn’t look at you twice. I know that if he does catch your eye it’s because you’re staring at him and he’s just looking around. I know your texts to him were deleted a long time ago, along with the YM conversations and I know he’s dating a new girl now. I know for a fact that he doesn’t compare her to you. I know he doesn’t have feelings for you anymore and I know he just doesn’t care. I know he doesn’t care about you no more. He never did. Trust me. I should know. I know you can relate to everything I said because he made us all feel the same. Do me a favor please? When he’s done with his current girlfriend pass this onto her. I know you will because you appreciate this as much as I did when it got passed to me. Knowing you’re not the only girl he’s hurt though, makes you feel better I guess. I wonder how many more girls he’s gonna hurt….. P.S, I know you still miss him. Even after reading this and realizing someone else felt exactly the same way about him that you do now. But trust me; the girl he’s dating now will feel exactly how you felt. Remember you gotta be strong, keep your chin up and head held high. You will get over him. I promise you. It’s just gonna take time.

I dare all of you to read it. ;) Take care.

15 comments:

sicKo^ said...

honestly, i can't do it.. i just read a few first line and i gave up..

CAHAYA said...

Haha. It's okay. You can try again later. I salute whoever can read this all in one seat.

I paused 3 times (and even went for my meal break) before I can finish it myself. Haha.

dukunlintah plk said...

so romantic yet ruthless.. ;p

CAHAYA said...

Hmm. It supposed to be that way. It was a reminder from an ex-ex-gf to another 'current' ex-gf.

Who's next?

Anonymous said...

I did read it thru all d way..good one.. just d thing I need rite now.. how very true!
I will save this & read it whenever I feel down..TQ!

@xiM said...

ok i dah baca semua..tapi tak paham..haha

Jard The Great said...

aku fahamm... ehehe... lelaki tu buaya....

CAHAYA said...

Anon,

Good. Please pass this to the next ex-gf. ;)

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Axim,

Lor, tak faham ke? xpe, cuba lagi.

CAHAYA said...

Jard,

Yep. Buaya. Nanti ko pun boleh pakai ni. Bg kat next ex-gf dia. ;)

Suka Bebel said...

penat jak aku baca walau baru separuh.kepala pun naik penin.nanti lain kali aku habiskan.hehe

CAHAYA said...

Haha. Ok. Takpe2.

zara said...

Jap jap...this is a note from previous relationship and passed on to the current one..and will be passed again to another soon to be ended relationship? Whoaaa....amazing!

It's hard to say..really. For it's either him and/or her, both are actually on amazing race to be in lovey dovey relationship too soon, I assume, and ended within a snap. It may not be his/her intention, and may not purely his/her fault..but whatever it may be, both need to safe guard their feelings in the first place. At least, when you fall, you still have a parachute to save you from a hard knock on the ground.

I believe in karma. I believe in what goes around comes around, and vice versa.

But pity tho, really. Pity for both actually. What good does it make to hurt another soul in the process of meeting The One Above? Life is too short to even waste with this kind of self-made drama which in the end leaving everyone in despair. *sigh*

Porcelain Doll said...

Yeah, I've read it and have you heard this song? "Same Script Diffrent Cast by Whitney Houston & Deborah Cox. It's about the same...

by the way, mana dapat ni? *kepoh*

CAHAYA said...

Zara,

As human beings, we should be cherish one another life. Agreed with you, pity both of them. Pity the bf and also all the exes.

People say that love hurts. They blame love for whatever happen and the wrongdoings. I realized it now. It is actually otherwise. Love doesn't hurt us. Love doesn't make us cry. But people did. And when something like this happen to them, they always wanna something to fall onto. They want someone else to share the same burden and feel whatever they felt. And this is not good.

I believe in karma too. I believe whatever happen may or may not has it reason. Sometimes, things are left unexplainable and sad.

CAHAYA said...

Doll,

I found it in tmblr. I'm not sure where it originated from. But I find it worth sharing.

I never heard that song before. I'll listen to it later and tell you about it. ;)