Burung dan Belon, kedua2nya terbang.

Kuching2 sekalian, tunggu saya

Esok, Selasa 24/11/2009. Saya akan terbang bersama keluarga ke kampung halaman di Kuching untuk Raya Haji.

Saya hampir lupa bagaimana saya menyambut Hari Raya di Kuching. Kali terakhir rasanya semasa saya masih belajar di sekolah menengah. Masa itu pun Raya Puasa. Mungkin lebih meriah sikit dari Raya Haji yang bakal kita semua sambut Jumaat ini. Tapi itu tidak sesekali mematahkan semangat saya untuk melangkah naik 'belon' esok.

Dua tahun berturut-turut saya bekerja pada Aidiladha. Kerja bersama2 mereka yang sambut Deepavali dan Tahun Baru Cina. Tapi kali ini Mak saya belanja tiket AirAsia RM70. Merasalah saya terbang free. Seronok kan?

benda pertama yang saya akan cari bila sampai

Salam Aidiladha semua. Maaf salah silap saya. Halalkan makan minum, jika ada. Hutang saya tak minta halal. Yang memandu pulang ke kampung halaman, pandu ingat orang tersayang. Mak ayah tunggu awak kat kampung tu. Saya akan nasihatkan pilot saya bawa kapal terbang slow juga esok. Biar lambat asalkan selamat.

p/s: Orang sana tanya ole2. Saya jawab terus terang tak ada. Sayu. Tapi balik ke KL, insyaAllah ada. Kalau nak pesan, call atau SMS yer.

Bila dia datang menganggu.

Kalau ikutkan hati ini, malas mahu saya fikir pasal orang lain. Tapi, dia yang satu ini datang, saya perlu fikir. Dah lama dia hilang. Tiba2 muncul lagi. Penat sudah doa supaya dia tidak datang. Tapi muncul juga.

Dulu dia pergi tinggalkan beban, tinggalkan masalah, tinggalkan hutang dan semuanya atas bahu saya. Kali ini, datangnya tak tahu untuk apa. Maafkan saya kalau kali ini saya doakan dia mati dan jangan muncul lagi. Hish, jahatnya saya. Maaf. Tapi itu yang saya rasa sekarang.

Sebab dia muncul juga buat saya hilang mood untuk blog, untuk FB dan tutup telefon setiap hari. Sebab dia muncul buat saya rasa nak menjerit sekuat hati. Maaf, saya benar2 mahu dia mati.

Jadi, lagi lama dia muncul, lagi lamalah ruang kisah CAHAYA ini kosong. Sama juga dengan FB. Sama juga dengan telefon saya. Kenapa? Sebab saya tak mahu dia cari saya lagi. Saya benar2 mahu dia pergi.

p/s: kalau kamu di atas membaca. saya serius!
p/s/s: maaf kalian, tak dapat jelajah blog. waktu kerja dah habis.

saya teringin cupcake. illustrasi tiada kaitan dengan post.

Mereka selalu guna 'dowh'.

Dalam blog tak payah cakap la. Bersepah orang pakai 'dowh' ni.

"Mana boleh 'dowh'..."

"Kau kat mana 'dowh'?"

"'Dowh', jom makan..."

Banyak lagi sebenarnya yang aku mahu senaraikan. Tapi cukuplah setakat itu. Aku tidak tahu dari mana asalnya 'dowh' ini. Dan aku selalu beranggapan bahawa ia berasal dari perkataan bo'dowh'(bodoh). Tidak tahu betul ataupun tidak.

Post ini terinspirasi daripada SMS yang aku terima dari seorang rakan. "Aku kat KL, 'dowh'". Aku terus reply, "Jangan guna 'dowh' dengan aku. Aku tak suka. ;)" Dia terus call dan minta maaf.

Kamu tahu ia dari mana? Perkataan ini kerap kali aku dengar dari mulut2 remaja or orang yang perasan dia masih remaja. Kawan2 adik aku selalu juga sebut. Entahlah. Padaku, aku tidak gemar mendengar, apatah lagi mengucapkannya. Aku rasa perkataan ini adalah perkataan kegemaran mat2 rempit. Jadi sekiranya diucapkan oleh orang yang berpangkat, mungkin aku akan hilang hormat padanya. Maaf kalau kamu salah seorang dari mereka.

Mungkin yang mengucapkan perkataan ini terasa mereka sangat hip or mungkin rasa mereka mengikut trend. Percayalah, banyak lagi trend berfaedah yang kamu boleh ikut daripada menggunakan kata ganti itu kepada rakan kamu.

p/s: Aku harap tiada yang menggunakan 'dowh' di sini. Thanks. ;)

I need to know.

Holla! I'm in a good mood. So good in fact. So, true enough that I only blog whenever I feel bored or sad. But something going through my mind and made me wrote this post.

And this post might sound boring to some of you. Believe me, I'm kinda having a free mind. Empty in fact. So the idea kinda runs dry a bit. Sorry guys/gals.

I remembered from not while ago, someone asked me to make my own quotes rather taking quotes from someone else. My understanding of the meaning of quote/quotation kinda objects whatever he/she suggested above. So how do you explain quote/quotation? Do you quote yourself? Or how actually quote/quotation works?

Something from Mr Wiki,

Quotation is used in text to indicate the words of another speaker or writer.

My understanding is the same as above. Every single of it. Every now and then. How about you?

So here's a quote and also text art by our dear Muslim friend, Zohayma. I will practice this, InsyaALLAH. KEEP SMILING everyone. Allah(SWT) loves us all, no matter what.

p/s: ZackZara and me did discussed about this quote/quotation thingy over our meet-up the other day. Gosh, we did talked a lot!

What do you wear to sleep?

**Warning: The picture might be inappropriate. But not the content. Do read, okay? ;)

Sleepwear, I wish I could wear one of this. (in my dreams!!)

Most of people wear sleepwear to sleep. Some choose pajamas, or even caftan. Sometimes a plain kain pelikat, batik or boxer will do.

What do you wear to sleep?

I wear a smile to sleep. Yes, a SMILE. I sleep with a big smile on my face. Everyday (since I'm on night shift), without failing. ;)

p/s: muka sudah bentuk love.

I guess, I am the happiest person on planet right at this moment.

Woa, what a title!

Thanks Allah for November. I've been waiting for it since forever (kot!). Wanna know why? Actually, I've been summoned by someone to write posts in BM for a whole 1-month, which was for the month of October. Finally, it's over. Although I didn't wrote it in full BM (or proper BM), I'm still proud, I did it. And I hope you guys/gals do like it too.

As yesterday was 1st November, I wanna say Happy Birthday to my blog friends, November and Farah. Have a wonderful-great-awesome birthday!

Okay, back to the title. Today is our day. Me and him. I met a person. A very nice person. And it has been a full 2-months of meet-know him. I met him at very crucial moment of my life, I would say. And he's my savior.

I was about to be declared bankruptcy (at least I think I am, eventhough I'm not) when I met him. He was a financial advisor (planner whatever) signed by AKPK (If you don't know what is AKPK, please Google it, okay?). We met and he asked about my payment plans to settle my loans and all I say to him, "Saya kalau banyak sangat hutang saya bunuh diri je." And I did cried in front of him right after that. Silly me!

He was very calm. And he did promised that he would help-guide me in any ways to settle it. Alhamdulillah, for the 1st month, I think we did great. I still don't have money to spend. But I settled all my loans on time. And I'm looking forward to settle other loan (yes, I have one) starting the month of January.

As the frequent meet up makes our heart grows fonder. We started calling names to each other. No such things as baby or darling or even sayang. We called each other 'gomok' and 'debab'. And we do feel great about it. I enjoyed our petang-petang cardio sessions and makan-makan afterwards, which leads me no-KGs lost for this 2-months. Aiyak!

It has been good 2-months with him. Alhamdulillah. And we're looking for more. Pray for us, will ya? As for now, I'm the happiest person on the planet called earth. I don't expect for wedding or tie-a-knot whatsoever any time soon, so please don't ask. :P

I just wanna enjoy this moment. If only I can put a pause to it. ;)

p/s: he's my savior when I fall.