Saturday, September 5, 2009
He left. And I hope it's forever.
I used to believe that I can't live without love. I used to think that my life will be miserable when he left. I tried to keep the relationship going on. Even I know, both of us might end-up in misery in some point. I was wrong.
Honestly, I feel better now. Inside and outside. I took control of everything. My life, my feelings and myself. It was hard at first. But someone told me it was all mind set. So I let it go. And lined up my priority up front. I turned to Him for guidance and peace. Alhamdulillah, I managed.
In our life, we’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom we shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There’s the one we first kissed, the one we first loved, the one we put on a pedestal, the one we’re with and the one who left.
Who is the one that left? I guess it’s that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn’t fall the right way, I suppose.
I believe everything happen for a reason. Everything just happen the way it should or shouldn't. I just hope both of us will find our happiness. And if not with each other, we will find it with someone else. Or somewhere else.
YKWYA: We had some unsettled business which need to be taken care of before I leave this world for good. I just hope there's no hate between us. I know you still want to bash me any chance you could. And you did. Please just stop it. You not hurting me but yourself. I'm so sorry for everything.