Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Fasa.

Disclaimer: Forgive me if I come across as a bitch but I'm in a shit mood today and can't be bothered with wrapping everything up in a nice way.

Ah, no one will read this anyway.

What drives me mad is how I keep meeting guys that have zero drive to impress me. I'm not saying I want a knight in shining armor but I've been meeting so many men that either show all signs of wanting to get to know me better but didn't do a damn thing to make it happen or men that think I am going to want to do something stupid like go on a cruise around town with them. Sleazy!!!

I respect every guy who has the guts to ask me out properly, behaves like a man (confidence!!) and shows me respect. No, I'm not going to be saying yes to everybody but it's the only chance I will say yes. There's no need to be flashing cash either, I personally just want to meet men in an environment where we can get to know each other.

When I meet guys that are too scared to admit in some way that they like me, red flags do pop up. I keep wondering what it tells me about the guy, isn't he confident? Do I intimidate him? Then I soon stop wondering and start looking around for other males willing to approach me. Chances are the other guys will still be around in case things go really bad for me and I need an ego boost.

It didn't work out this time. Again. Ya, maybe I'll end up alone. Maybe I'll never find someone who'll love me unconditionally. Just so you know, I'm not worried about ending up alone. I'd rather be alone than be in a meaningless relationship. It's far better to be alone than with someone shit!

p/s: Believe me this is just a phase. An emotional one. And I hope I'll be okay tomorrow.

5 comments:

Cikgu Nizam said...

Marah nyer che cahaya...

Guys difficult to express their feeling...

Cikgu Nizam said...

I'm first... yay!!

new home: http://cikgu-murid.blogspot.com/

CAHAYA said...

Cikgu Nizam - Haha. Yeah! You're first! Yeah. Maybe it's true. They afraid to show how their feel. That's too bad.

ije said...

chill dear.. =)

CAHAYA said...

tengah chill walaupun tengah panas. hehe. :)