Friday, February 13, 2009
Back to Square One.
I bet everyone wants to love and be loved. I want that too. Being in love is all about living in the moment. It does not necessarily for the feelings to be between a man and a woman. It also can be among the family members, friends, future lovers and between human. :)
I've felt it. It feels so good inside. Warm. But, it just so long ago. And I missed to feel that again.
I don't know whether the feelings from past few months was genuine. Is it just an obsession? Rebound? Conflict? Filling-the gaps? Or is it real love? I'm not sure. And I don't want to find out. None of it matters anymore.
Well, life is not without its challenges. What matter most now is what I have right now in front of me. My family, friends and work. I have to set my priority and targets. I need to stay focus. I won't let something called love to make me fragile. I believe in jodoh, that's for sure. InsyaAllah, if He lets me have it, I will get it. Please pray for me. :)
Tomorrow is Valentine's day. You may think I'm bitter or a loser for not having someone on V-day. But, it does not matter. I'm still me. I'm still last year big-fat-ugly-single me.
Back to square one. So what? Haha.
p/s: My mum will be in surgery this afternoon. Doakan yer kawan². :)