Friday, February 13, 2009

Back to Square One.

I don't missed William's TripleH, that's for sure.
I missed you.

I bet everyone wants to love and be loved. I want that too. Being in love is all about living in the moment. It does not necessarily for the feelings to be between a man and a woman. It also can be among the family members, friends, future lovers and between human. :)

I've felt it. It feels so good inside. Warm. But, it just so long ago. And I missed to feel that again.

I don't know whether the feelings from past few months was genuine. Is it just an obsession? Rebound? Conflict? Filling-the gaps? Or is it real love? I'm not sure. And I don't want to find out. None of it matters anymore.

Well, life is not without its challenges. What matter most now is what I have right now in front of me. My family, friends and work. I have to set my priority and targets. I need to stay focus. I won't let something called love to make me fragile. I believe in jodoh, that's for sure. InsyaAllah, if He lets me have it, I will get it. Please pray for me. :)

Tomorrow is Valentine's day. You may think I'm bitter or a loser for not having someone on V-day. But, it does not matter. I'm still me. I'm still last year big-fat-ugly-single me.

Back to square one. So what? Haha.

p/s: My mum will be in surgery this afternoon. Doakan yer kawan². :)

29 comments:

Faisal Admar said...

i hope everything is fine with your mom. my prayers will always be with her.

i don't have a date. so? :)

always see thing in the bright side... you will feel happy no matter what :)

CAHAYA said...

Thanks. I hope everything goes well with the surgery. I'm not sure which one she's having. But it is an eye surgery.

Yeah! It's not a big deal. :) Thanks. :)

^arween^ said...

semoga mum cahaya ok2 sahaja :D

Shooke said...

valentines' day? xde makne..

btw..

ur mom.. hope she will be fine.. amin

Suka Bebel said...

bahaya tu, your feeling towards him. if what you felt is real love, you will know it. the feeling is superb!hehe

Redbloodsnow said...

Zie doakan ur mom will through it perfect n smooth :) harap² ur mum cepat sembuh dr her sickness ye...insya'Allah...padaNYA kita sama² panjatkan doa yek cahaya

:)

izan said...

cahaya,

sedapnya macam murtabak aje... mesti sedap makan panas2 kan.

k zan doa kan semoga semuanya selamat dan cahaya jgn susah hati sangat ye.

apabila kita ikhlas dalam persaudaraan, kita akan terasa nikmatnya hidup. walau kadang2 susah hati nak terima, tapi cubalah....

haritz said...

Cahaya+Cinta=CahayaCinta. kamu akan perolehi dan semua itu ketentuannya. Berdoa dan bersabar.

ps:Ya Allah selamatkan lah ibu Cahaya dalam operasi ini kerana hanya Engkau yang lebih mengetahui.Amin

Ju-Jue On the Line said...

lame tak makan chilli's

CAHAYA said...

arween,

Alhamdulillah. Everything went fine today. :) Tomorrow she have to go for follow up.

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shooke,

haha. takde makna? not celebrating dear? mana itu gilfren?

my mum is okay. Alhamdulillah. Thanks. :)

CAHAYA said...

sukabebel,

Yep. Memang bahaya. Especially when the feelings is only one-way. Haha.

As I said, I've felt it before. It was superb. I can't wait to have it again. But, jodoh di tangan Tuhan kan? :)

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redbloodsnow,

Thanks Zie, thanks so much. Alhamdulillah surgery went so well. Cuma sedikit sakit sebab katarak dah tebal dan keras. *betul ke ejaan katarak tu?

CAHAYA said...

kakIzan,

bukan murtabak. tapi roti. roti 3 keping, dilapis dengan cheese, daging dan juga salami. Lepas itu disalut dengan telur. :)

Sedap itu memang sedap. Tapi bersama dengan seseorang di masa itu lebih sedap. :) Sedap dlm hati.

Yep. Ikhlas. itu yang Cahaya cuba amalkan skang. :) Semua terpulang kepada Dia, Cahaya akan terus usaha dan berdoa. :)

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haritz,

Alahai. Sangat sweet equation kamu itu. Sorry abt the bad news. Harap kamu juga tabah yer encik Haritz.

ps: Alhamdulillah. Semua selamat. :)

CAHAYA said...

ju-jue,

dah lama eh? aku baru makan last week. next month baru makan sedap lagi.

ari tu tak nak kan? secret recipe sangat x best. haha. :)

p/s: aku teringin italianies. :)

Ad Rifza said...

Moga emak Cahaya bertambah sihat..
Jodoh ajal dan maut ditangan Allah..Manusia hanya mampu merancang...rite?..KetentuanNYA atas tiap sesuatu..Yang penting kita harus sentiasa tabah dan sabar dalam mengharungi hidup ini..Doa,usaha dan tawakkal ..Insyallah..Semuanya akan elok ketentuannya..

CAHAYA said...

Alhamdulillah mak Cahaya dah selamat dari surgery petang tadi. Skang ni dlm proses penyembuhan pula. Semoga mak cepat sembuh. :)

3 perkara, Ajal, maut dan jodoh semua ditanganNya. InsyaAllah bila Dia berkenan, ada la tu nanti.

Kalau takde pun, kita masih ada Dia dan kawan. :) Thanks Ad.

Skullsplitter said...

InsyaAllah seme akan ok. =)

skullsplitter

CAHAYA said...

Yep! :) InsyaAllah.

TuN TeJa said...

smoga ur mom akan cpt smbuh..doa banyak2.. :)

CAHAYA said...

Thanks Teja. :)

Faisal Admar said...

mana update ni? :P

Faisal Admar said...

jangan malas kay :P

Faisal Admar said...

sila update tentang hari ni :P
and tolong buat tag :D

ixora said...

amboi, bnyknyer bro FA tinggal pesan...ehem2...tetiba sakit leher lak...huahuahua...

btw sis, hope ur mom gettng btter..

aminnn... =)

CAHAYA said...

faisaladmar,

haha. you spam on my comment box. lol. :)

New post on the way. And I'll do the tag later. insyaAllah. :)

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ixora,

thanks xora. mane kek cahaya eh? haha. :)

p/s: kenapa sakit leher? teleng banyak ke?

zackzara said...

Hope everything turns out well, with your mum and your love life. Amin..

CAHAYA said...

Thanks Zara. My mum, Alhamdulillah she's doing fine. Dah lepas 1st check up. :)

Shooke said...

gf....takde..

dok ofis.. ngadap apple.. buat keje..

Catz said...

hope ur mother sejahtera dan ok di kala ini..

oh...

why so worry for date-less on valentines day? dont worry..nanti kalau u jumpa yg betul2 sayang u..hari2 adalah hari kasih sayang..not only on 14th feb dear..
cheers..

CAHAYA said...

shooke,

how come takde gf plak ni? Bukankah hari itu anda baru couple?

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catz,

my mum sihat, Alhamdulillah. :)

selalu orang cakap camtu kan? 'he's somewhere out there'. Tapi mananya? Haha. Takpe, mungkin susah nak nampak Cahaya, so dia ambil masa sikit nak cari. Hehe.

I'm not worried. I just felt so lonely. :(