Saturday, February 14, 2009

Saturday the 14th.

My name is Nur Sakinah which in Arabic means Cahaya Ketenangan. I’m going to be 28 years old on this Monday and I'm still unmarried. I don't like to use the term single because it sounds like you have no one whatsoever in your life. Although, it's true that I don't really have someone at this very right moment. Haha.

To tell you the truth, I've lost count of how many boyfriends or flings I had since I was young (I'm still young, okay). The thing is, I’m not good looking. In fact, I'll be in 'the not beautiful', if there's a category to it. My nose is too flat for my face (kemek kot, plus kembang). Then, my ear can be compared to flapping butterfly wings, which I always hide with my hair. And my eyes are actually too small for my own good (seriously, I want big set of eyes). And I should loose half of my current weight to achieve my BMI and beats Angie Jolie's body.

Haha
. Sounds like not grateful at all, kan? No lah. Just my point of view and how I see myself through a mirror. Alhamdulillah as I was born with everything, cukup segala segi. :) Thanks Allah.

I don't actually want to blab or condemn about my physical appearances. As today is the 14th of February, I think it is sweet nice to talk about LOVE and something related, like my one and only valentine's experience.

I can easily fall in love with someone. Even the guy don't even have any feelings towards me, I keep on treating him like a boyfriend. They used to tell me that I am a very good friend and if it was under a different circumstance, they would have loved to be my boyfriend. Yeah right! In my dreams. Haha. *sarcastic*rasa nak muntah, kan?*

Among all of the guys that I fell in love with, there can never be one quite like Riza. He really got me into him when he quoted a line in one Malay movie at the night of 14th February 2006.
"Baby, 'you're the 99% perfect girl because no one is really perfect.' And I love you. You're perfect at my eyes. I don't care what others think about you." *The quote from the movie are the one in bold letters.* :)
Never knew that my life change after that 14/2/2006. We just walk around the lake of Titiwangsa that night. Hanya bersaksikan bulan dan langit. Chewah! We walked. We talked. And I can't believe that I can actually walk for about 10 rounds that night. Haha. Funny. When you're in love, it can make you do something that you wouldn't do when you're not. There's no fancy celebration. No candlelit. No gifts.

To me, love isn't flowers, chocolates, lavish praises and extravagant gifts.

It's someone loving you, warts and all.

p/s: The next day, we still had the normal V-day celebration complete with the works. Fancy dinner at KL Tower, a full dozen of roses with various colors. And.... Haha. :)

26 comments:

zackzara said...

Happy Birthday in advance, Cahaya. Many happy returns yea.

As for love, well...there's gotta be somebody out there for each and everyone of us. Just keep your faith & pray for the best. Love doesnt really confine to A and B only..but more than that.

I'm in love..with life :)

CAHAYA said...

Thanks so much Zara. :)

I believe that too before. As for now, I just keep praying. Whether there's anyone or not, I just leave it to Allah. He knows best for me. :)

Yeay! Lets celebrate love.

Skullsplitter said...

Love is love. Nothing to do with the physical look. Maybe some of them think that physical look is the most important things in love or maybe it's only about us. We think that no one will fall in love with us because of physical look.That's a human being. We love to judge people.

For me, I try to find someone who can be honest with me. Someone who care and someone who can give me happiness. How can you live with someone who doesn't care and totally against with the criteria you need. And you know it. It will hurt you for the rest of your life.

He's fair. If we being kind and great to others, trust me, He will give us the great person to live with. Just my thought.

skullsplitter

CAHAYA said...

Been there, done that. Its not working. But, I won't stop praying and keep my faith going on as I go along.

People can judge. It's me that know myself better than anyone else. I've learnt the hard way and never wish to go down that road again. If there's someone, Alhamdulillah. If not, so what.

I know He knows what best for me. I leave everything to Him from now on. :)

Slow and steady. :) Yeah! *rawk face*

landaklaut said...

Cinta tu kan pelik.
kita akan sanggup buat apa saja untuk cinta.
cuma jangan sampai ia memakan diri.
yupp i agree.. cari cinta yang datang tanpa dipaksa. dun worry.. u will find one.. :)

oh ya.. and Happy Birthday in Advance to u too.. :)

CAHAYA said...

Thanks landaklaut for the wish.

Cinta tak buat begitu. Cinta sepatutnya suci. Tapi kadang² ramai yang rosakkan kesucian cinta itu, termasuklah Cahaya sendiri.

Tapi makin lama, Cahaya tahu, yang cinta tak semestinya bersatu dan setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahNya.

Setiap satu manusia ada cinta dlm hati. Cahaya percaya itu. :)

[danial][ma] said...

hej! Cahaya...wish you a happy birthday and many happy returns...and may you find your other half...cheers! ;-)

reena said...

chentai la org yg menchentai lebey diri kite... igt tuh yang... ahaks...

Sherita Aziz said...

cahaya - there is someone for everyone.. cuma kita tak tahu bila kita akan jumpa dia... he is somewhereout there.........

Shooke said...

jodoh tak kemane... pasti ade..

14.2.09

i was in my ofis.. and lots of work.. huhu..

cahaya.. jgn cedih2.. hangout ngan kawan kawan yg lain.. buat aktiviti menyeronokkan... hilang sunyi..

chaiyok!

Faisal Admar said...

i think its true that "love is in the air".

"love is wonderful".

don't ask me why i say that but agree with skull love is love. physical attraction never a problem because its very subjective depend on individual perspective.

arsaili said...

salam...ada jodoh tak ke mana

DrSam said...

salam,
Just could not describe the word 'love'. You have to feel it first, than you will understand.

Catz said...

Happy birthday to you cahaya.

semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki dan mendapat jodoh yang baik..

cahaya,
jgn risau sekiranya masih single at 28..or to be exact unmarried.
just enjoy wut u have because wut more important is u happy. ramai yg melihat dr segi kekurangan sekirana sudha lanjut usia dan belum berkahwin atau masih single.
ramai yg akan ckp " rugi tak kawin..banyak yg ko miss kalau tak kawin"..
but for me..senangje jawabnya.
"BUT u dont know wut i don't miss"..

better melihatnya sbg satu peluang utk berbuat apa saja tanpa ada kekangan dan halangan (kalau u tanya org yg sudah berkahwin, pasti ramai yg ckp bhw they missed byk benda yg mereka nak buat kerana terikat dgn komitmen perkahwinan, pasangan dan anak)..so...saya rasa as single person/unmarried u have so many opportunity to make ur life happy...to the fullest..
i know..my statement ni nampak klise...tapi instead of fikir ianya sbg satu benda yg tak best why not do something fun..!! Mungkn ada benda yg u tak boleh nak buat masa dah kawin nanti..so now..guna kan masa sebaiknya utk buat apa yg u suka...sebab masa tak boleh diundur...

tentang rupa...
bagi saya..rupa bukanlah satu benda yg semestinya org pandang utk jadikan kita pasangan..saya positif mengenainya...or..kdg kita realise kekurangan diri kita.ada benda yg boleh kita ubah..ada yg tak...dan saya berpendapat..zaman sekarang mmg ramai yg pandang rupa..so...kalau rasa ada benda yg kita boleh ubah, kita boleh usaha ubah..cthnya..berat badan..why not..kita makin sihat, lebih cantik..ceria if berat kita smapai pd keadaan yg ideal..dan kesihatan kita bagus..ini sekadar pendapa saya. (sebenarnya saya terpengaruh iklan2 produk/program kuruskan badan yg letak testimonial sebelum dan sesudah penggunanya...biasanya masa gemuk tak cantik, tiba2 bila kurus jadik cantik dan saya selalu nak jadi mcm tu..hihhihihi)
Sebab...zaman ni..tak dinafikan..atau lebih mudah kita kena terima hakikat bahawa mmg ramai yg memandang rupa dahulu baru tgk hati (ada kawan saya kata..statement " kalau dia suka aku, biarlah dia terima rupa aku seadanya" tu dah tak boleh pakai). Tapi taklah semua mcm tu..tru my experience.tgk kawan2..ada jugak yg plus size pun, ada je yg berkahwin dgn lelaki hensem..meaning that ada lagi lelaki budiman dm dunia ni (WALAU suatu asa dulu saya pernah fikir, lelaki baik dah pupus atas muka bumi ni.hahahhahaha)..

mungkin jodoh u belum sampai..belum jumpa...and 2009 masih panjang rasanya...mungkin u akan jumpa jodoh u tahun ni..who knows..just positif about it...buangkan kebimbangan...dan hidup ceria..!!!

arep said...

are we looking for love or soulmate?

jodoh akan ada.. cuma.. cepat atau lambat.. sabarlah u. doa banyak2 supaya di cepatkan jodoh.. ada doa utk itu.. i tak pasti.. tapi ada...[if that what u really want]

untuk cinta... easy.. u may love someone.. but tak pasti either u will get the same love in return.. but still mencintai seseorang..mudah bukan... [macam bertepuk sebelah tangan la pulak]

tapi itulah hakikat.. kita tak semestinya dapat cinta dari orang yang kita cintai..

i always keep telling myself.. there's a soulmate for everyone....

CAHAYA said...

[danial][ma],

thanks :) I'm done searching. Let he come to me. Haha.

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reena,

Yep. My mum pun selalu pesan. Kalau pilih pasangan, pilih yang sayang kita lebih dari kita sayang dia. :)

CAHAYA said...

sheritaAziz,

itulah, bila nak jumpa soulmate ni? *gatal kan Cahaya ni? Haha.

Why take so long to find me? Adoi la.

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shooke,

yeh? ada eh? hehe.

dateless? kenapa keje kuat sangat. relax sket yer. :)

my v-day turned to be better than I expected. :)

CAHAYA said...

faisalAdmar,

love is in the air? no wonder I had trouble breathing this few days. *suffocate, haha.

I know love is wonderful and always keep me wonder what will happen next along the way.

I know it's very easy to say than living in the actual situation. People just ignore the ultimate goal of finding 'the heart' and concentrate more on 'the looks' and 'the heart' after that. Believe or not, the chronology has change. Along with the technology. :)

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arsaili,

salam. yep, insyaAllah tak ke mana. :)

CAHAYA said...

DrSam,

salam. I felt it. Nice. I want to feel that again. :) yes. it un'describe'able.

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Catz,

thanks Catz. Happy birthday to you too. :) Yours today, right?

Yep, they always speaks in this language and told me that I missed a lots of things. Seriously, they don't know what I don't miss. Hehe. :) I can enjoy traveling without boundaries till the day I get married. :)

Pasal appearances tu, memang sangat subjektif. People always said, 'tak pandang rupa, yang penting hati.' haha. bullocks!

Jodoh, Cahaya percaya itu. Blom sampai. InsyaAllah coming soon. :)

CAHAYA said...

arep,

mencari cinta yang berbalas memang susah, lebih lagi bila kita dah 'ter' suka plak kat orang itu. :)

tahu. jodoh itu ada. lambat atau cepat je kan? I'll always keep praying. :)

p/s: people always said that 'there's someone out there for every each of us'. It's cliche.

Suka Bebel said...

kalau cukupkan 1000 round mesti dah dapat shape angelina jolie tu.hehe gurau je eh?

its the matter of time until u got the right guy. just maintain ur patience k? love is always around us.it is up to us how to grab it.hehe

CAHAYA said...

Haha. Itulah. Kitorang stop pun pasal kena tahan ngan DBKL. Haha. Kalau tak, mahu sampai siang. haha. :)

Skullsplitter said...

Selamat Hari Lahir Yang ke.... Huhu! Dah tue 'akak'. Haha.

skullsplitter

CAHAYA said...

Ye la cik Abang. Awak pun tua gak! I baru 18 tau u ols. :)

en_me said...

mesti akak nih garang kannns.. uhuhu

btw, happy birthday my dear..

CAHAYA said...

en_me,

Cahaya tak garang la. :) Thanks for the wish.