That 16th February.

Last night. Early birthday bash.

I turned 28 today. Looking back on the past 27 years and 364 days of my life, I have only one question to ask.

What am I doing with my life?

One thing’s for sure though, I have done a lot of things. Good and bad or even a combo. But none are as significant as, like ending world hunger, volunteering for Gaza or getting the US to stop bombing innocent people all over the world in the name of fighting terrorism.

When I was a little girl, I always pictured myself in next 20, 30 or even 40 years old. At the age of 12, I've realized that I want to be someone, somebody rich and famous. I want to have a huge beautiful house and all money in the world. Money is everything for me at that time. I've pictured everything includes the husband, the very handsome-charming husband with 4 kids of ours.

When I reached my 18 years of age, I know I've all grown up. I was waiting for my SPM's result and at the same time got my driving license. My uncle of mine asked me to pick what car that I want to drive after my result come out. I smiled. I said I wanna have my first car with my own money, from scratch.

At the age of 24, I've graduated and working. I leave, run, and live my own life. I wanna my parents to let me be. I know what I’m doing. Friends be the most important things in my life at that time. I live life fast and relax later. I live life by my own rules. I wanna have everything, no matter what were the consequences. I live in the here and now. And worry about the future later or sometimes not worry at all. I just wanna be left alone with my life.

As for today, being 28 years old, I've learnt everything. I hope this age make me wiser. I really hope so. I know it is still long way to go. I will be better in every possible ways. InsyaAllah. Please pray for me.

Sometimes, one can’t help but wonder what are the priorities in life. Maybe this is the age where I'm considered mature but not old. Bright prospects but not overly rated/paid. Or maybe being 28 is when I'm considered stable but not comfortable in life.

This new age phase is the perfect time to try new things. I don't have anything in mind yet but your ideas are most welcome. Other than this, there are things that I need to put in perspective. Being a bachelorette that I'm, I began to wonder if 28 is the perfect time to settle down or should I wait 2-3 or 5 more years. I welcome all suggestions regarding what to do with my life from now on. I'm at all ears.

As for now, I’ll be perfectly content to just live my life like I should, one day at a time, slowly. Who knows, maybe new opportunities are just around the corner.

Until then, I’ll ramble through life at my own pace. With or without you. :)

p/s: Please don't judge. Huhu. I wish nak kawen cepat last night. Haha.