Thursday, February 26, 2009

Thinking of You.

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

It has been a while now. But, I still remember. Bit by bit. Part by part. I still can't forget the whole him. I wish I can forget everything all at once. Everything. Every memory of him. I would like that very much. They say, memories will keep us going from past to present and future, later on. I can't even move. Not a step. Not a leap. No never.
They said,

"It's not good to hang to your past for so long, you know. It's not healthy."
"Apelah yang best sangat dia tu? Banyak lagi orang lain."
"He moved on. Kau bila lagi?"
"Forget him. You will." (sounds like Master Yoda. Huhu)
"Relax la. Single bukan berdosa."

He said,

"You will forget me. It just the matter of time."

How I wish it is that simple...

p/s: Why is it so hard to forget about the past? I don't wish for more. I just wish all will be the same, ever again. I know it's so much to ask... And I know my wish will never be granted. :(

38 comments: said...

hmmm... keep the sweet memories ;)

life is hard. losing is harder

be strong

Faisal Admar said...

Cahaya, you should join Music Monday. I like your choice of music. Gosh, the got killed part is heartbreaking. Watery eyes when see the Western Union.

The bed part was full of love instead of lust.

Thinking of you.

I like the title.

TuN TeJa said...

susah nk lupakan kisah silam..tapi..biar masa yg tentukan.. :)

selaluny apa pun akan sembuh n berlalu dgn masa...

CAHAYA said...,

how I wish I can sort the bad and hood memories in two separate piles. But when you remember about the good things, automatically the bad ones will follow next. Adoi!



told you I don't know how Music Monday works! haha.

Yep! The saddest was when she received the W.U. I cried okay! Huhu.

The bed part, which one? When she with the present or the past? Huhu.

CAHAYA said...


yep! it just matter of time, as he told me. But, I guess I need to buy some more time.

orang kata, get busy. Pasti lupa. Dah terlalu busy pun ingat jugak! Tak patut...

Kniedaz said...

mmm...memories are meant to be kept..

Nik Muhammad Hafiz said...

confront ur feelings and will be solve...the more u run the more it will haunt u down...use "4 it" "confront it, feel it, deal with it, and get out of it" ...try that..

Redbloodsnow said...

One of my favorite song neh cahaya. tp z listening to diz song w/out thinking kat sape2..hehehe

erm...mmg ssh kan nk lupekan ssorg. Zie pown pnah rs gak ape yg cahaya rs. its not that simple :( but now...alhamdulillah...i managed to over it


HEMY said...

alaa...baru nk layan video no longer available...huhu

menyinggah satttt

cendawanintim said...

uihhhhh...naper tu??

Monkey D Luffy said...

memory are for learn

axim said...

be strong my fren..

Things always happen for a reason..

let bygone be bygone ok..


Ad Rifza said...

Setiap suatu dtg dgn hikmahnya.. Yang berlalu tetap akan berlalu walau selaju mana kita mengejar ianya tetap akan berlalu juga..We have to forget all the past..Yeess its hard..but the times will comes and you can forget everything in the past..What is past is past..Berdoa lah moga yang akan dtg itu lebih baik..Insyallah..

Faisal Admar said...

The one they were kissing :)

CAHAYA said...


I agree if there were a good one. If not, buat sakit hati je. :) Tapi, semua yang best2 la. Kalau simpan pun still heartache!



wow! you're like a life coach. :) You're a trainer right? So, you teach this as well? Thanks. It seems good in written, but not in my heart. Huhu.

CAHAYA said...


sedap kan lagu ni? layan sesangat!

how you managed to over it? kadang2 rasa dah over. tapi, pada hakikatnya, macam blom je. Huhu.



lar. takde ke? ade je? ni mesti youtube kena block ni kan? :)

singgah la lagi.

CAHAYA said...


hehe. asyik tanya kenapa je. :) ngak ada apa2 deh.



learning is a big process. I know as our past experience will make us wiser. Hopefully! huhu.

CAHAYA said...


I will be strong, maybe. And maybe not. Ntah. That's the thing. I cant let bygone be bygone. I can't let go. :(



InsyaAllah ada hikmahNya. Yang lepas memang dah lepas. Takleh nak patah balik atau stay kat yg lepas. Tapi, Cahaya menanti miracle itu. Boleh dpt ke?

CAHAYA said...


hehe. Okay. I've seen this video for few times. And sedih sangat la. Watery eyes all the way.

p/s: suddenly my mood all mellow.

Faisal Admar said...

Stop the blues and let's numa numa! Haha. Mai ya ha ha!

CAHAYA said...

Haha. Mai ya ha ha. Terus teringat Rihanna and T.I. :)

p/s: My mood dah best dah ari ni. Everything was 'song'ful! Back to rhythmic-fun-melody kind of life!

Luth Textile said...

terima kasih la ye kerana sudi memberikan sedikit pandangan di blog Luth..

CAHAYA said...

wsalam. semua sudah okay ke luth?

en_me said...

layannn lagu larr fulakkks.. uhuhu

al-hussaini said...

kata orang, jangan pandang belakang.

tapi, perkara-perkara silam juga yang membuatkan kita lebih matang untuk dijadikan pengajaran

CAHAYA said...


layankan je. :) ada makna tau!



yep! insyaAllah boleh belajar dr kesilapan yang lampau. itu yang diharapkan. :)

jgn pandang belakang ye? tapi sekali sekala mellow takpe kan?

TuN TeJa said...

masa akan belalu..sampai kita pun xakan sedar..

n sometimes bleh watkan kita lupakan sesuatu perkara..but of cos..will take time... :)

CAHAYA said...

harap2 macam tu lah kan? huhu. xleh tidur pulak. dah la jap lagi raja 'sexual harassment' nak masuk keje. huhu. lagi la x leh tido. huhu.

Jard The Great said...

perggh... based on ur expereince ek???

miezi said...

it's hard at first, but soon sure u get over him

[S]itie [B]Um [B]Um said...

sabar ye..

landaklaut said...

setiap perkara yang berlaku mesti ada sebabnya.
saya percaya bila kita diuji dengan dugaan, ia bermakna kita sebenarnya mampu menghadapinya.
be strong k. :)

CAHAYA said...


huhu. no komen. *_*

experienced made us wiser. :)



i hope so. :(

CAHAYA said...


okay. InsyaAllah. tq.



pernah dengar orang cakap ttg Allah beri ujian pada umatNya yang tahan ujianNya. harap2 begitu. semoga ada hikmah. :) thanks!

al-hussaini said...

mellow? kelembutan yang macamana CAHAYA maksudkan tu? hehe

CAHAYA said...

lembut di dalam hati. sayu je. :) its all yellow, mellow. hehe.

Rozella said...

I love this song and the video clip is so touching....

CAHAYA said...

yep! touching...