Friday, May 1, 2009

How to Save a Life.



Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

CHORUS

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS

CHORUS
How to save a life

CHORUS

CHORUS
How to save a life

I'm back. Hopefully. I'm currently listening to The Fray album this week. This 'How to Save a Life' song touches me most. I played it on repeat (yes, on repeat. Back-to-back. I'm sure you can imagine it, right?) all the way to/fro work.

I've just lost a friend, a company, a buddy, and an inspiration. All in one person. I wish we have some sort of guidelines on what to do and whats not in order to keep people that we loved stay right beside us for a very long time. For whole lifetime at least. But sometimes, whatever we wish for, will never be granted. Or we just did something that may be wrong in their eyes and made they chose the path their in right now. Which definitely no us me in it.

When I was 8, I believe that friendship pact are forever. That was back in 1989 before I was transferred to another school. I'm actually lost all of them. I didn't know what had happened. They've just lost. No trails. No tracks. I'd try to keep the friendship. I searched for them whenever I'm in the neighborhood. No luck at all. I lose faith on friendship from that moment on.

Years after years, I made friends. A lot. I even joined the best clique available. But still, I've started to lose every each of them around me when I'm transferred to another school for the second time. And the third time. And the list goes on. This what you've got when your father is a policeman. I'm not complaining or blaming him. He really did traveled a lot.

My keep-in-touch skills was sucks back then (and I guess, still). I left without saying goodbyes. I hate farewell. It gave me watery eyes. So, no phone numbers, addresses whatsoever. I just wish that we'll meet again someday. I meant it. I meant it hard.

Yes, we've meet again. Through Facebook! Haha. Thanks to technology. So much of 'mendekatkan yang terpisah', kan? I keep searching. The list is still going on.

p/s: But my buddy delete me from his Facebook. What's about that? Gain some, loose another? I wish I know how to 'save' him. Huhu. :(

21 comments:

cik siti penguin said...

the song, is great. the fray always has good songs. 'you found me' is good too ^^.

i suck at keeping in touch too. i just like to use the internet. hate making phone calls, too lazy to text, and absolutely will not write. lols. teruk kan? so lastly i just use myspace, facebook and such. eh i'll add you at facebook :)

Nite Garden said...

It's kinda hurt losing a companion. But that's life. People come and go along our lives. only the memory last forever..

Ada ramai lg yg beratur tunggu Cahaya ;p Satu pergi seribu mari, kan?

ixora said...

akak, namo la sedih2...

meh la sini sementara Xora maseh d sabah..

jom rileks bah..=)

Inah said...

:)

friendship is something u will treasure till the end of time :)

have a great weekend ok mate!! :)

zara said...

People come and go as they like. Can't help much about that tho, as they come for reason and for season only. To have them for a lifetime is a miracle.

I had more or less the same experience too. It a lil bit painful at the beginning but sooner or later, time will heal it. I hope you do too.

Have a great weekend, Cahaya. It's been a while hadn't catch up with ya over the ym. Be good aight!

CAHAYA said...

cik siti penguin,

Yes, I like 'You Found Me' as well. Don't be like me. I used to believe I live for today and I left my past behind me. Memories are meant to be kept forever. Friends too. :P

Add me. Click on my FB's badge, will ya?

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Nite Garden,

Yes, people come and go as they may. Hate to say goodbye. Hate to be left too. Memories always remain as memory as long we keep it. But if we don't, it surely vanish.

Ramai ke? Macam x je. Haha.

CAHAYA said...

Ixora,

Tak sedih la Xora, terkilan kot. Sedikit kecewa. :P

Nak sangat pegi Sabah. Tunggu AirAsia sale pulak nanti. :) Wait for me, don't go back just yet!

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Inah,

Yeah! Supposed. I'll treasure every moment I had. Just, I'll do it differently. :P

Have a great great long weekend. Hehe. For me la kan. You're back in KL kan?

CAHAYA said...

Zara,

I like to have them for a lifetime. But, as I said, we'll never get everything we want as we like. Sometimes we have to admit, we're not meant to be together. Have to obey with the Qada' and Qadar, Ajal and Maut, Jodoh and Pertemuan, are determine and plan by the Almighty. He knows what's best for us.

It was painful. I managed. But I still hurt though.

Have a great May, Zara. It has been a while since our last catch-up over YM. :P

@xiM said...

suka lagu ni!!sebab aku minat citer greys anatomy the series..hehe

try dengar lagu you found me..pun best jugak!!

*god always work in mysterious way ok..

CAHAYA said...

Terpikat dengan lagu ni pun masa tgk cerita yang sama. Masa Season yang Izi punya bf mati tu. Huhu. Sedih. Dia baring kat bilik air. :(

p/s: betul. Dia yang Satu tahu kerjaNya.

kasih said...

Layan CD cetak rompak tu ker??? Thanks for let me transfer it to my iPod...

I lost my friend too... and I don't need such friend... Sakit kepala dan otak je... So, not having him with me is a blessed!!!

lalala: dim sum... dim sum...

tchersally said...

Sis..,
friends do come and go..its the 'sahabat' that stays in d deepest heart core..

great song..

take care!!

a.b geldofg said...

kalau tk kita pun tk kenal kan? ;)

Suka Bebel said...

kawan yang betul betul sejati memang susah dicarik.aku bersyukur sebab kwan sekeliling beri sokongan ketika aku susah.paling buat rasa terharu yang berbangsa cina pun turut setia membantu.huhu

Jard The Great said...

hehe... i also suck at keeping in touch... and also thru technology I managed to contact one out of a dozens of friends I had in the past.. not all..

life.. we are made to meet as many ppl as we can.. nothing lasts forever..

huhuhu..

en_me said...

iye, me pun jumpe kat FB kawan lamer yg 18 tahun x jumperr.. sonok kannns

CAHAYA said...

kasih,

Ops! Slow sikit cetak rompak tu.

no prob! Ye ke don't need? Nanti sendiri frust menonggeng nanti.

p/s: dim sum? Makan kat umah nak?

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tchersally,

I wish all my friends are my 'sahabat'.

Yeah! Great great song. Take care too, tchersally.

CAHAYA said...

a.b. geldofg,

Tu la. Betul tu. :P

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Suka Bebel,

Auwh! Sedih aku dengar kisah kau. Camne skang? Aku harap kau dapat kerja baru dalam masa terdekat ni.

p/s: time susah la baru nak tahu siapa kawan sebenar, kan?

CAHAYA said...

Jard,

True, not all. But more than enough for me. Dari tak dapat langsung kan?

Yeah! I love LIFE. I love PEOPLE. :P

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en_me,

Kan? Best je kan?

dukunlintah plk said...

love the song..

CAHAYA said...

me too. :P