How to Save a Life.

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

CHORUS

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS

CHORUS
How to save a life

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How to save a life

I'm back. Hopefully. I'm currently listening to The Fray album this week. This 'How to Save a Life' song touches me most. I played it on repeat (yes, on repeat. Back-to-back. I'm sure you can imagine it, right?) all the way to/fro work.

I've just lost a friend, a company, a buddy, and an inspiration. All in one person. I wish we have some sort of guidelines on what to do and whats not in order to keep people that we loved stay right beside us for a very long time. For whole lifetime at least. But sometimes, whatever we wish for, will never be granted. Or we just did something that may be wrong in their eyes and made they chose the path their in right now. Which definitely no us me in it.

When I was 8, I believe that friendship pact are forever. That was back in 1989 before I was transferred to another school. I'm actually lost all of them. I didn't know what had happened. They've just lost. No trails. No tracks. I'd try to keep the friendship. I searched for them whenever I'm in the neighborhood. No luck at all. I lose faith on friendship from that moment on.

Years after years, I made friends. A lot. I even joined the best clique available. But still, I've started to lose every each of them around me when I'm transferred to another school for the second time. And the third time. And the list goes on. This what you've got when your father is a policeman. I'm not complaining or blaming him. He really did traveled a lot.

My keep-in-touch skills was sucks back then (and I guess, still). I left without saying goodbyes. I hate farewell. It gave me watery eyes. So, no phone numbers, addresses whatsoever. I just wish that we'll meet again someday. I meant it. I meant it hard.

Yes, we've meet again. Through Facebook! Haha. Thanks to technology. So much of 'mendekatkan yang terpisah', kan? I keep searching. The list is still going on.

p/s: But my buddy delete me from his Facebook. What's about that? Gain some, loose another? I wish I know how to 'save' him. Huhu. :(