Thursday, July 9, 2009

Chasing Pavements.


Love isn't torture. Love isn't selfish. Love isn't hurtful. Love isn't cruel. If you do feel any or all of this, that's mean the one that you hold one right now isn't love.

Love is beautiful. Love is freedom. Love is sweet. Love is sacrifice. Love is all the good things you can or cannot describe with words. If you have it right now to your possession, lovers, keep on the road you're on. If not, it's better to let it go. After all, love means letting go. If it's meant to be yours, it will be yours eventually. It's no point to keep pushing your luck or chasing pavements. You might as well giving up and move on.

I chose to give up and moving on. Hopefully.

peace.love.respect('cahaya')

I've made up my mind,
Don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong, I am right
Don't need to look no further,
This ain't lust
I know this is love
But, if I tell the world
I'll never say enough
Cos it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do
If I end up with you
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements
Even if it leads nowhere
I build myself up
And fly around in circles
Watin' as my heart drops
And my back begins to tingle
Finally, could this be it

20 comments:

Porcelain Doll said...

well said darling...
and yes, I'm trying to move on
but not to another relationship
but just being with myself.
and yes with friends and family =)

i don't feel what love should make you feel,
infact i'm ticking all of the 'shouldn't' list.
sigh... i am letting go.

CAHAYA said...

Doll,

Moving on doesn't mean you have to have new love right now. Just keep moving on with life. Without him. But with the same routine. Thank GOD we still have lovely people around. I wouldn't know what I'll be without them.

Don't think too much of the list sayang. Just live by the moment. Don't let yourself hang to the 'not' list.

Letting go is a good thing. Are you ready to do that? I am.

Porcelain Doll said...

I'm ready but I'm worried...

I've been opening the door for many times, God knows and i hope this time around, no more room for that person again. I hope I'm strong to not to accept that person again, strong not to open that door, strong not to let it happen again and not to allow it to happen. I'm really tired...

thanks Cahaya for your words.
i felt better. at least, I'm not alone.
We are all not alone...
If we think we are,
then we are together in it *wink*

CAHAYA said...

Doll,

There's a possibilities that we might go on the same road again. But make sure, when you're on it, do it differently that time. Even if it turns out bad, at least we do it differently. We're not making the same mistakes.

I'm tired too. Tired of trying to make it work. Once your heart broken, it will never ever be the same the next time you're on it.

Thanks to you too gal. :) Take care.

HEMY said...

love is subjective...=]

Porcelain Doll said...

honestly, I'm runnig out of ideas and any other ways to tackle this. So, I'm running away *wink*
With my not-so-cun heart but I'm sure time will heal everything. Insya-Allah =)

CAHAYA said...

HEMY,

Agreed! :) Morning dear.

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Doll,

Just live by the moment. Don't think too much. Running away is not the way. You have to face it even if it bitter.

Time will do justice and healing. Hope the same for me too. :) InsyaALLAH.

kcynodia said...

yang penting, dalam percintaan, matlamat kena kuat. kalau tiada matlamat, sekadar bermain-main, baik dilupakan...

ada matlamat, pasti masing-masing akan berusaha mencapainya...

zamspotte said...

Love is the sacred feeling between two hearts... The feeling with full of love... And no else...

Love lay from hearts, not from brains... The destiny of love is always happiness... The love that brought into sadness is th fake one!!!!

Brian Kinney said...

Love is selfish :P
I want my lover to be mine and only me! LOL.

@xiM said...

it's hurt but it maybe the only way..
:)

CAHAYA said...

kcynodia,

Matlamat itu satu. Banyak juga lain yang menyusul. Berusaha juga penting. Cinta itu permainannya 2 orang. Kalau 1 sahaja yang bermain, tak bergerak jugak ke mana.

Tapi Cinta zaman sekarang ini menuntut lebih dr sekadar usaha. Kena tabah dan kuat juga. If you can't endure the pain, means the game aren't yours. You have to quit before it's too late.

CAHAYA said...

Zamspotte,

We don't called it love for the fake one. Obviously there's no love involve.

Agree with you. The feelings, the happyness is sacred. It can't be compared. It will never be the same between one another.

CAHAYA said...

Brian Kinney,

Tried that before. Not working. Maybe you can be selfish to yourself, but not to others. Love is a game for two. Supposedly both sides win.

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Axim,

Yep. Hurtful. But I do what I gotta do. :)

.o r k e d. said...

setuju! (:

tchersally said...

give love wings..so that it could fly freely..if it flies back to you..you can be sure that it's meant to be yours..

Jard The Great said...

yups.. i'm learning to let go also.. huhuhu...

haritz said...

lama tak dengar citer dari U, adat org berkasih rindu-rinduan chewah!! nak kena belasah haritz ni hehe..

CAHAYA said...

.orked.,

Ok. :)

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tchersally,

He got all of wings in this world. Hopefully it will fly back to me. But if it doesn't hope the new love is better than what I've to offer.

CAHAYA said...

Jard,

This kinda learning process is so hard. I hardly move or eat. Just plain water to make my heart soothing. I wish I can turn back the time.

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Haritz,

Lama ke? Kamu sombong kot. Berkasih? Mana ade. Tiada adat langsung di sini.