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I believe there will always be a blessing beneath everything that happened. Allah led me to it. He shall lead me through it. I do not blame anyone, as I understand that love can't be forced. However, I could not find any good excuse to forgive myself, to forgive my naive behavior and all those stupid things I've done, which in the end, hurt no one else, but me, myself and I.
I wonder if there will be anyone who could accept me for who I am now, because me myself can't even seem to accept the real me now. I felt ashamed of myself, I really do. I was a loser in love, who got dumped and left all alone, when I sincerely gave my heart and soul to him.
One of my treasured friend told me that, "You should not let this experience holding you back from seeing other hopes in life."It's true, but at this moment, I am too tired to be able to see any hopes in life. I'm not willing to risk it again, and get hurt once again. It cut deep, so deep that I barely feel any pain anymore.
Yet, I'm forever grateful that throughout these time, I've gained and learn a lot. I should be thankful. For all the care and love from those who truly concern about me especially my family members and friends. I sincerely Thank You from the bottom of my heart. I shall treasure all of you.
I am blessed, after all, as I still have all of you who still love me. I might lost the love of my life, but I gained a great lesson, and some treasured friendship as well.
One of my good friend said, "Sometimes not wrong to dwell in your misery, but don't drown in it, you must know when to stop and move on again. Now you cry or whatever, it's part of the healing process."Thank you, your words lighten my heart.
All said. :)