>>>>>>from previous postI finally feel relieved from all my doubts and uncertainty. Knowing the truth hurts, but it would be worst if I keep on dwelling on the same things for Allah-knows-when just because I never knew the truth.
I can choose to hate him and blame him for he hurt me so badly, but I choose not to. Because I knew I would never able to do so.
It would be easier to bless him and start all over to know him as a 'friend'. I'm glad that we talked things out and we did not end up as enemy. Though I might not considered as his so-called close/good friends, at least there is still friendship between us.
It might seem saddening for a couple to end up as 'friend', but I'm blessed that we did not end up as 'enemy'. I will bless his life, no matter what lies beyond the future, he can be sure that I'm always here for him, as a friend, always!
I will forever bless him for his future, and I wish him happiness always. May he find his true love one day (too bad I was not the one he wanted!).
People said he does not deserve to have me in his life (ayat pujuk ni, nak ambil hati la tu), but I felt that I was not good enough to match him.
Alhamdulillah.
>>>>>> to be continued
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ermmm...aduh, sakit2..
1st lurve and kecundang..sakitnya smpai skrang terasa..:(
I used to hate myself when I couldn't stop my feeling from loving her when we declared the relationship as "just friend". But then after time goes by, I managed to deal with it and the feeling just faded like wind blows the dust. Vanish. Even the memories seem vague.
Now, I have to be careful not to get some someone for rebound but the one who truly loves me, cares for me and want to grow older with me :)
Remember what Danny Pearl said to Mariane? :)
Jika itu ketentuannya usah kita kesali..Setiap orang dijadikan berpasang-pasangan..Pasangan yang sebetulnya ada..Insyallah..Cuma dalam perjalanan itu kita akan melalui pelbagai cerita hubungan sehinggalah sampai ke satu cerita yang akan kekal abadi..Insyallah
Cara tidak bermusuh itu adalah suatu cara yang amat mulia.What is past is past...hmm
Xora,
memang sakit, but redha je la. InsyaAllah ada la tu nanti. Cinta dunia, tak ke mana.
p/s: nak cuba kejar cinta yang Satu. InsyaAllah, cinta dunia ni dalam tangan je. Hehe.
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Wahidah,
Yep, 1st love. Rasa nak terburai dada meletup. Tapi, ntahlah. Ketentuan la kot. Ke Cahaya yang syok sendiri? (macam betul je ni)
Faisal,
Yeah, I remember. And I need a copy of that book too.
The thing is when I declared to be his friend, I don't want to loose any memories of him or us. I just don't want us to be apart, forever.
When you said that as time goes by, you start forgetting about her and your memories together, I don't want the memories between me and him to be vague. Can I? I guess this is not my call, right?
p/s: My heart still pounding hard. Like I'm in love. How can this be possible? This will hurt me in the end, again. I know.
Ad Rifza,
Betul. Cahaya percaya tu. Manusia dijadikan berpasang-pasangan. Dulu, waktu sekolah, kitorang selalu baca paper, takut sangat kalau yang mati accident tu jodoh kami. Kelakar kan? Tapi, tak mustahil.
p/s: Tapi boleh ke mula jadi kawan? But, waktu bercinta pun dia kawan, kan? Dia sahabat, kawan, teman, cinta hati, kekasih, teman hidupku. :(
ammvoiii, majuk majuk gitteww..
mane de. :(
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