Percaya Atau Tidak?

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Kamu percaya? Me? Tak percaya langsung.

Semalam pergi. Tanda sokongan kata orang. Tapi masih tak percaya. Dan takkan percaya pun. Banyak yang dilihat dari orang lain. Orang lain punya cerita. Orang lain punya pengalaman. Tapi masih tak percaya. Dan takkan percaya pun.

Yang dipanggil 'Tok' itu terlalu muda. Pakai ayat AlQuran. Tapi, masih tak percaya. Biarlah mereka yang terlibat sahaja percaya. Me? Simpan sahaja di dalam hati. Sudah cuba nasihat, tapi tak 'jalan'.

p/s: seronok 'mengebom' orang tak faham bahasa. Padan muka! Haha.

Untuk KAMU.

Disclaimer: Entry ini ada 2 post. Post-1 ada kaitan dgn lagu di atas. Post-2 tiada kaitan. Post-1 dan Post-2 tiada kaitan. Haha.

Post-1

Memories are sweet. And sometimes bitter. But I like to keep the sweet one.

Sometimes we do think about our ex boyfriends and girlfriends. Maybe because we're still in love with them. Or maybe not.

For me, when I did think of him, it's not because of love. It just because of the memories. It doesn't mean that I'm still not moving on. Period.

So, please don't be over excited when I do contact you once in a while. :P

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Post-2

As this entry is specially dedicated for you (you know who you are and I know you'll definitely read this), and you're a female, I don't want this post to sound like a post from one lesbian to her partner, because I'm not. You? I'm not sure. Kidding. LOL.

Thanks for calling me last night. I've been waiting for the full 2-months for your call, SMS, IM or any other methods of communication available in Malaysia. Waiting is something that I really hate. And you know that, right?

I'm sorry for my 'bitchy' SMSses and emails that I sent to you earlier. Believe me, I only meant not even half of the messages. It was full of hate. I don't know what was I thinking when I wrote those messages. I'm not angry at all. I'm just sad. So sad. And there's a frustration involved too.

You left me all by myself to handle your 'dirty' scandals. I guess I can handle it for a while. But not for long. Too much pressure around and I've lost it. I lost myself too during the process. I became very 'stiff' in everything I do, including my words. I hurt people with my words (they asked for it for sure! Padan muka. Haha). And I hurt you too. **geram sangat!

I hope that can explain the 'bitchy' part.

I hope you can put it all behind us. And I'll definitely do the same. About all those losers, just forget about them. Okay?

I'm your friend. Always. Count on me. I'll be there. No matter what.

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p/s: there's some changes in the entry and I click PUBLISH POST for the 2nd time. the time will change too. so please don't ask me any ridiculous question. I don't know what went wrong.

Dreams.

I had a dream last night. To be precise, a very sweet dream. I woke up with a smile on my face.

Only that I realized it was quarter to 5am. Gosh! I'm gonna be late again today. I wish I never had to wake up that early so I still can enjoy that very sweet dream. Now, I'm officially hate this 5am shift. Thank God there will be no more 5am shift again after this month.

There's nothing like kinky stuffs or anything. Just plain but sweet dream. Really sweet. :)

If I can put it on request, I want the same dream again, tonight!


p/s: And now Secondhand Serenade's Fall For You is playing over-and-over in my head.

Why Ask the Same Q's?

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Korang macam mana, nak sign tak dokumen pindahmilik tu. Kak Mie korang tak nak sign.
**Okay, kitorang tak sign jugak lah.
Yelah, Mak bukan ape, kang sorang nak sign, sorang taknak.
**Yer, kan dah cakap, kitorang pun tak sign lah.
Mak tanya je. Korang nak sign ke tidak?
**Err.

Kau rasa salah Mak ke?
**Taklah, dia yang gatal.
Apa salah aku eh?
**Tak, Mak tak salah. Dia memang gatal.
Ko rasa apa salah Mak?
**Err.

Ko rasa macam mana? Patut ke Mak lepaskan?
**Ini semua di tangan Mak. Mak buat solat Istikarah, doa banyak2, supaya Mak diberi pilihan yang betul. InsyaAllah, Dia beri petunjuk.
Yelah, pendapat korang?
**Mak, ini bukan keputusan kami. Kami ikut apa yang Mak fikir terbaik.
Korang rasa?
**Err.

I hate to answer the same question over and over. But when it comes to my mum, I've to answer every single question although I've already answered the same one just the right second.

I've tried to be a good listener, but I just not good enough for her. I've tried to be the best for her, but I always end-up being the worst.

But, I will always answer you no matter what. Even I'm not the FAVORITE.

p/s: It's sad when you know that you're not the chosen one.

Scandal or Affair?

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Both words carry different meanings and definitions. Both are dark words for some individuals. But a 'lottery' for certain. I'm not judging nor condoning. I just wonder if is there any LOVE involve, or just purely FUN (win-win situation maybe. Err, ops!).

Do you really wanna do this?
Yes. Only if we both play by the rules.
Rules?
Yes, rules. You know right?
What?
I'm married. And I have all saudara mara menakan segala. So anything that from you that will lead to them is a NO-NO for me.
Meaning? I know for sure you're married. What's with 'me lead them to you'?
Don't call me, I will call you. Same goes to SMS. No picture together. And mine alone in your hand phone or laptop.
Alone pun tak boleh?
How can a married man picture end-up in a girl's hand phone? Please, I see you everyday. What's more to ask?
Erk!

Scandal or Affair.

Either way, I don't like it. How about you?

Leavin' On A Jet Plane.

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go,
I'm standing here outside your door,
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye,

'Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane,
I don't know when I'll be back again,
Oh babe, I hate to go

I'm all set! Yeay! Lets Cuti² Kuching, Sarawak. I'll be in Kuching for 4 days starting from today. :P

1)Flight ticket - CHECKED!

2)Hotel/Car Booking information - CHECKED!

3) Luggage - of course lah CHECKED! Hehe.

I'll be going with Juita (she will be arrived on the next day, her flight is on Friday). Unfortunately, Intan can't join our Cuti² Kuching this time. She'll be going to Pulau Sibu (which is not located in Sarawak, hmm, I wonder. Haha) with her colleagues.

I'm not a fan of Pulau. Do you?

So take care everyone. Eat, sleep, and live HEALTHY. And I'll definitely do the same.

Till then. Ciao.

Life, Love and Regret.

This will be a short post. So much is going on right now. Involving this 3 words - life, love and regret.

For me, life is simple. Love too. There's nothing wrong with these two if there were to combine. As long as we live our life out, love will be anywhere and everywhere near us.

Speaking of love, if you've found one, you're blessed. If not, just wait and keep faith going on. We know that God works in mysterious way. There must be someone for each everyone of us (as people always put it). When the time comes, do appreciate what we have. And treasure everything. Because we never know how long our dreams come true will last. And there's no point to regret or question why and what went wrong. The damaged is done.

Regret by the way is not the word to be sad of. Rather it's the word that reminds us not to live a regret life. People come and go in our life. For that, we must be prepared all the time. Or else you'll be in emotional breakdown. Just like me. We never know when they gonna drop the bombs, right? We might be caught off-guard.

p/s: I'm not the best person for you to seek advice. Nor to put on hope. I really hope that I can help you Mummy. I want to share your burden, and I know it's impossible. Nothings in the world can be compared to what you've been going through right now. But, I just want you to know, we'll always be on your side despite whatever. I love you.

The FRIM. The GATHERING.

I had fun yesterday. Eating mostly. We had all-you-can-eat-buffet-over-the-park at FRIM with few more bloggers this week, plus a few of the company from the previous one.

The meeting was supposed to be at 11am. But I've lost track of time while packing for my Mee Kari. Plus, we sort of 'lost in the jungle' to find the venue. I've been to FRIM before, err, if I'm not mistaken, 14 years ago. So, my 'google-map' skills quite limited when it comes to this place. Haha. Luckily I had Teja, Farah and Nad (eventhough she was quite emotional unstable at this time) as the signboard readers.

As I've mentioned to you earlier, we had all-you-can-eat-buffet this time. A lot of foods for a small group, I would say. I wonder where were the 'voters' who click FRIM at Dr Sam's blog. Haha. I guess we kinda have 'pengundi hantu' too, here. Or maybe, they also experience the same adventure 'lost in the jungle' like us. And never find their way home. Touch wood! Err, perlu bersangka baik selalu, kan?

I was too indulged with delicious food and didn't quite managed to catch up with TeacherSally and the Gang, November and also Meen. I wish that the day will be longer. I really hope to meet you guys again at our next 'mengeteh' session.

Anyone know what's the meaning of 'mengeteh'?

I can't help not to overheard the conversation between TeacherSally, her husband and DrSam about the meaning of 'mengeteh'. I really thought that 'mengeteh' came from a root word 'teh' or tea. Which will be used whenever we ask someone to hang out and catch up over some tea. I was wrong. Huhu. My bad.

It was hard to eat and laugh at the same time, you know. Dr Sam, Teja, Farah and Nad have their own natural talents of making me burst into laugh at any time possible. We bonded quite well for the 2nd meeting. Way to go guys. It feels like we've known each other for years. We should do this again next time. But not in this few weeks or months. Give me chances to miss you all, okay?

Thanks all for a great makan2 day. :)

"When true friends meet in adverse hour;
'Tis like a sunbeam through a shower.
A watery way an instant seen,
The darkly closing clouds between."- Sir Walter Scott

Sticky Note: UPDATE! Bloggers' Gathering!

(This is sticky note. Please scroll down for other posts.)

We had fun at the 1st bloggers' meet-up. Lets meet again, shall we? And for those who missed the 1st one, do come and join us. Details are as below.

Tempat : FRIM, Kepong (kawasan rekreasi & perkelahan, bersebelahan anak sungai - ada dua pondok disitu)
Tarikh : 14hb Mac (Sabtu)
Masa : 11 pagi - 2 petang

Jom! The more the merrier.

The Proposal.

Cahaya & Along @ Oldtown Kopitiam

I can't help not to notice happiness through Along's eyes when Mummy told that someone actually asking Along's hand in marriage last 3 weeks. Along acted normal. Seems didn't care at all. But I know, deep in Along's heart, she actually singing.

I knew about this earlier, few months back. Everyone knew. But not Along. Mummy kept it secret as she didn't want to put Along's hopes high. She will be 32 this year, in April. Maybe it's the best time to settle down.

Mummy just got back from Kuching last Sunday. I can told by the looks of her face when I first saw her at the airport. Frustration. And maybe guilt. Mummy had to carry big news for Along. She pretended like nothing has happened. But, it was so obvious.

Mummy known for her can't-pretend talent. I know she tried her best not to burst the news too early. But like me, Along can smell something was not right too. She confronted Mummy the next day.

There will be no wedding for Along. At least not for the time being.

I was at work when it happen. Along SMSed me.

Good morning!!! I've asked Mak already about orang Sarawak tu coz I got six sense hehehe..... something is wrong... dah nak kawin dah... Mak kata camana tau... Along cakap six sense le plus kiasan die... Mak kata die nak cite pas ni tapi Along dah tanya dulu.

Ohh. I'm so sorry. How do you feel? Are you okay sis? I actually knew about this last few days. Mak suruh jangan bagitau. And I respect her decision. I hope you understand. Are you okay sis?

Kau tanya sedih le lak ada org concern. X pe as I told u I don't want to put up hope until I get kepastian macam ni. Now I can move on. Nasib baru tahu 2 minggu hehe. Along pun dah sembahyang hajat dah, kalau baik cepatkan, kalau x, I've prayed to give the answer to the uncertainty.

Alhamdulillah. Good for you. I hope you're okay. And everything can be back to normal again, without all the tension. Hopefully. Don't worry sis. We always have each other. Kan? Lagipun that guy dah tak kerja kan? Tak rugi lah!

It must be hard for Along. :( I don't know what would be if I'm in her shoe.

I've read from landaklaut about marriage and jodoh. As usual, I think it's more to ayat penyedap hati. Maybe it's true. And maybe not.

From the post,

Jodoh tiada kaitan dengan keturunan. Hanya belum sampai masanya. Ia bagai menanti jambatan untuk ke seberang. Kalau panjang jambatannya jauhlah perjalanan kita. Ada org jodohnya cepat sebab jambatannya singkat. Usia 25 tahun rasanya belumlah terlalu lewat. Dan usia 35 tahun belum apa² kalau sepanjang usia itu telah digunakan untuk membina kecemerlangan.

Jika tidak sanggup untuk bergelar isteri tidak usah berkahwin dulu. Jika merasakan diri belum cukup ilmu untuk bergelar ibu ataupun ayah, belajarlah dulu. Jika rasa² belum bersedia untuk bersabar dgn kerenah anak², carilah dulu kesabaran itu. Jangan berkahwin dahulu sebab kenyataannya ramai yang tidak bersedia untuk melangkah tetapi telah melompat, akhirnya jatuh terjerumus dan tidak jumpa akar berpaut tatkala cuba mendaki naik.

Tell me what you think. :) Have a nice day!

Career Advancement. Hopefully.

Anyone fancy to work with Petronas? I am!

I've received a phone call from one of the Petronas personnel, Mr Marzuki yesterday. He asked for a meet-chit-chatting session to discuss about a job offer. I did apply last month online under general application. No expectation, as I believe they must be receiving a lot of application online. I just hope they can fill me in any position available based on resume that I've submitted.

And I never expect it will be this soon.

On the phone, Mr Marzuki told me briefly about the job offered. Something got to do with managing personnels and HR-practicing for Research & Technology Department (R&T). HR? Err, seriously? I'm in IT/Engineering line. What am I supposed to do in HR? But R&T sounds interesting. Haha. I did asked whether he called the right person or not. He did laughed-out-loud (which make me more uncomfortable) and told me not to worry anything as he will discuss further when we meet. So I've decided to meet him!

Clueless. Excited. All mixed up. That's how I feel right now. Please pray for me that everything will goes well. Even at this point of time while writing this post, I can feel the butterfly in my stomach (I can't recall swallow any. Huhu). :) So nervous (Err, should I be nervous about this?). The truth is, I'm not ready to change job and start-over. But, no harm trying, right?

I'll be at Aseana Cafe, KLCC for the chit-chat with Mr Marzuki today after work. Hope for the best. :)

Salam Maulidur Rasul.

"Kin, hari Isnin ni public holiday apa?" **curious face
"PH untuk Maulidur Rasul."
"Err. Mauli apa?" **blur
"It's Prophet Muhammad's Birthday!"

Salam Maulidur Rasul for everyone. Salawat & Salam to our beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW. Shown above was a conversation between my non-Muslim colleague, Genga and me. It was longer actually. She asked about almost everything about how we (Muslims) celebrate Prophet Muhammad's birthday. And she also asked why the date of every single events and festivals changes every year.

There obviously will be no party, I told her. Muhammad SAW was born on special day. And I believe the celebration can be through reciting and reading Al Quran, and as well as other charity work in a way to thank Allah for guiding us to Islam through the Prophet.

Genga was never exposed about Islam cultures before. Her Muslims' friends are less than 10. I'm quite struggled to answer about the date of events and festivals. I tried my best to explain about normal calendar and Takwim. I managed to explain about putaran bulan mengelilingi bumi - which is for Takwim Hijriah and also bumi mengelilingi matahari - for Masehi's calendar, the normal calendar. Correct me if I'm wrong. I guess she may be confused kot as I can see she kept crinkled her forehead every now and then. So, I've decided to draw then. Haha.

My drawing. Haha. Pretty bad, huh?
The orbit looks funny. Err, do you know which one is the orbit?

I know this may be not the best way to explain, but I've tried my level best and it was all that I can think of for that time being. It was funny, as my drawing is way below average (it's actually way below, is there any level lower than this?). And I had to re-draw because at some point, I was lost and quite confused with my own drawing. She nodded at the 3rd drawing. I hope she understood well enough to explain to others in the future. I've learn a lot that day. And looking forward to something like this again. :)

This is my story of Maulidur Rasul this year. Salam again to all.

Have you ever encountered the similar situation before? Or issues when try to explain about things?

p/s: Someone bayar hutang today. Alhamdulillah.

The Jason Mraz, The Menge'teh', The Karaoke and The Makan2.

Let the pictures do the talking this time. :) Malas mode.

Jason Mraz's Live in KL - Stadium Negara (4/3/2009 8:30pm)

Juita and I had a really good time. And we did envy people who got the front-standing access! I hate the attitude of some people who came to concert and did filming (except for those hired!). They missed the whole point of 'watching' the concert. Duhhh!

The Menge'teh' Session - Ikano Uncle Lim's (7/3/2009 3.30pm)

Menge'teh' session although no one ordering tea except for Ice Lemon Tea. Haha. I had a fabulous chit-chatting with all. We should do this more often! It was hillarious. Thanks to Dr Sam, Kak Zaida, Kak Maria, Skully, Teja, Juita, Kama, Farah and Nadia for the happening Saturday afternoon. Not to forget, Kak Maria's hubby and cute, adorable children, Adam and Ayesha. Dr Sam, thanks for the souvenier. :)

The Menge'teh' After Party, Karaoke - News KTV (7/3/2009 7.30pm)

This will may be the ritual thingy kot, since everyone do have passion in singing. Haha. :)

The Makan2 - Kg Baru (7/3/2009 10:30pm)

We had dinner at Kg Baru. And had another series of laughed-out-loud. Skully was so close to become a Hulk because he was so hungry. Others too! Thanks again Skully, Teja, Kama, Farah and Nadia for a good Saturday Night outing. We split for the day. Sent Farah and Nadia home. And I proceed to Cineleisure for housemate's movie outing with Juita. Seven Pounds is really a good movie, but try not to catch it on Midnight show. Haha.

p/s: What a good start for the 1st week of March. Hopefully everything will turn out well too for rest of the month, and years. :)

p/s/s: I did mentioned that I want the pictures to do all the talking.But I can't help not to write something plak!

Talking Global in Local Ways.

I can't wait for tomorrow.
I can't wait for JasonMraz Live In KL concert.

Everyone is talking about global economic challenges nowadays. If you don't read it in the papers, you'll catch it on the news. If you miss it on the news, you'll be probably discussing it over lunch with colleagues. Or over email-chain with your house mates, like I always did with Intan and Ju.

My heart goes out with people who did lost their jobs because of this challenges. To blogger Haritz, hope you'll find new job in no time. My prayer always be with you. To Ju, I hope HP will revise about the 5% pay cut. To others, who affected either by direct or indirectly, hope everything will be fine and better for you.

As for myself, I have my issue of my own 'economic challenges' before. Plus with this global situation, it worsen. I have to plan my money ahead to get going until next month paycheck. To actually doing the plan, it's not the hardest part. To start in the first place, that was the biggest challenge. Everything have to start somewhere, right? If not, you will stuck with the same situation over and over. Alhamdulillah, I get over it. I managed, and it doesn't really that bad as I imagined. Few cuts here and there, no shopping until next bonus (if there's any, huhu), and stop paying for others actually a very good start. :)

But despite the global economic challenges - or rather, in spite of it - we shouldn't allow this gloomy talk to get us down. We need to stay positive and start looking on the brighter side of things.

After all, we can't control the economy, but sure we can control how we handle it.

p/s: See you at JasonMraz's Concert. :) Haha. So much of the economic downturn. Work hard, play hard. We earned it, right?

Peluang.

"Bukan berkhutbah, tapi betuli diri jua..." - Too Phat, Lagu: Alhamdulillah

Alkisah, ada 2 watak. A dan B. Dipendekkan cerita, A telah melakukan perkara tidak baik berulang kali kepada B. A telah meminta maaf dan berharap B memaafkannya.

Case closed untuk A, tapi mungkin bukan untuk B....

Di suatu malam yang dingin, B sms A, menuduh A melakukan sekali lagi perkara tidak baik kepada B. A menyatakan dia tidak tahu-menahu tentang perkara tersebut. B masih terus menuduh tanpa usul periksa. A sungguh berkecil hati dan tahu bahawa B masih tidak melupakan kisah mereka dahulu walaupun A sudah lama meninggalkan perkara tidak baik tersebut.

Terasa seperti hukuman mati dijatuhkan pada kisah lampaunya sedangkan sesekali tidak A mengulangi perkara tidak baik itu. Mungkin ini balasan atas perbuatan A yang dulu. A tidak menyalahkan B, mungkin kerana pengalaman masa lampau menyebabkan dia bertindak sedemikian.

Tetapi, wajarkah menuduh tanpa usul periksa? Lebih2 lagi A telah menerangkan bahawa dia tiada kena mengena dengan perkara tidak baik tersebut. Bukankah perlu menyiasat terlebih dahulu sebelum membuat tuduhan? Pertanyaan boleh diajukan, tetapi bukan hukuman.

Seperti B, A juga punya perasaan. A juga berubah. A juga bertaubat. A mahu kehidupan baru yang jauh dari kisah lampaunya. A juga tidak mengulangi perkara tidak baik itu.

Mungkin tiada peluang bagi pesalah2 di dunia ini. Mereka tidak akan diberikan peluang kedua. Peluang untuk tidak menjadi seperti dahulu. Mungkin ini juga perasaan bekas penagih yang dipandang serong oleh masyarakat walaupun mereka telah sober. Agaknya itu sebab mereka mengulangi perbuatan itu. Mereka tiada peluang. Jadi baik pun mereka masih kata jahat. Lebih baik jadi jahat.

Nauzubillah. Minta jauh. Minta simpang.

"Mereka bertanya kepadamu (wahai Muhammad), mengenai (hukum) berperang dalam bulan yang dihormati; katakanlah: “Peperangan dalam bulan itu adalah berdosa besar, tetapi perbuatan menghalangi (orang-orang Islam) dari jalan Allah dan perbuatan kufur kepadaNya, dan juga perbuatan menyekat (orang-orang Islam) ke Masjid Al-Haraam (di Makkah), serta mengusir penduduknya dari situ, (semuanya itu) adalah lebih besar lagi dosanya di sisi Allah. Dan (ingatlah), angkara fitnah itu lebih besar (dosanya) daripada pembunuhan (semasa perang dalam bulan yang dihormati). Dan mereka (orang-orang kafir itu) sentiasa memerangi kamu hingga mereka (mahu) memalingkan kamu dari ugama kamu kalau mereka sanggup (melakukan yang demikian); dan sesiapa di antara kamu yang murtad (berpaling tadah) dari ugamanya (ugama Islam), lalu ia mati sedang ia tetap kafir, maka orang-orang yang demikian, rosak binasalah amal usahanya (yang baik) di dunia dan di akhirat, dan mereka itulah ahli neraka, kekal mereka di dalamnya (selama-lamanya)."-Al-Baqarah, Ayat 217.

Tidak perlu peluang dari manusia. Perlu peluang dari Dia sahaja. InsyaAllah.

p/s: Bagus juga begini, tidak perlu rasa begitu. Alhamdulillah, ada hikmahNya.

Fat, Chubby, Gemuk.

Di atas adalah gambar semasa slot 'Nasi Lemak Kopi O' di TV9 pada Ahad lepas. Sudah seminggu cerita ini. Pulang dari kerja jam 7pagi, terus mengadap TV, sambil makan nasi lemak juga. :)

Isu yang diperkatakan, pasal Diet, pasal Gemuk, how to handle your feelings, self-esteem. Dan banyak lagi yang berkaitan dengan mereka yang berbadan gempal termasuk pengalaman² mereka.

Tetamu jemputan, Shanie dan Dina. Mereka nampak bersahaja dengan dialog² jawapan apabila ada orang mengeluarkan kata² kurang menarik terhadap mereka. Mereka juga mengaku mereka selesa dengan badan mereka. Dan beberapa lagi begitu dan begini yang tidak berapa penting.

Shanie cakap,
"Aku gemok, beras rumah kau habis ker?"

Dina pulak,
"Kalau jadi kurus, atau cantik. Dina tak jadi diri Dina. Dina jadi tak baik."

Terus terang Cahaya katakan, ayat² itu lebih kepada ayat sedapkan hati sahaja. Bukan penyelesaian masalah. Harus berdiri di bumi yang nyata. Yang pasti, Cahaya tidak selesa berbadan begini. Dan dalam masa yang sama, masih tiada orang disekeliling yang mengata. Ramai kawan. Ramai saudara. Alhamdulillah. Mungkin mereka di bidang seni, mungkin lain cara mereka pandang begitu dan begini.

Bagi Cahaya, kalau ada suara² sumbang menyahut, lebih senang pekakkan telinga sahaja.

I'm over it. Maybe not before, tapi sekarang ini. I'm okay!

p/s: Lucky my night shift ended today, say hello to 5am. :) Goodbye perverts!