Put That Record On.

No music, no life. So they say.

I found myself craving to music lately. I'm addicted to Adele, Rachael Yamagata, Camera Obscura, Green Day and Zee Avi. Their music suits me best at this very current mode and moment.

I sleep with Rachael's songs playing (which kinda depressing for normal people) and Zee Avi's when I wake up in the morning (I heart Zee Avi!). Green Day will accompany me during my 30minutes cardio (the new album rocks!).

I will listen to Adele's on my way to work (she really has a superb voice) and Camera Obscura's on the way back (kinda ol' skool feelings). I guess music can put my mind off to whatever bothering me for this last few weeks. Hopefully this is not just a temporary fix.

Everyone has their own ways to channel their depression or whatever bothering them. I have music in me. So I will keep singing a good tune in my heart from now on. This is my way of moving on.

How do you move on?

I've been listening to this(click, it's a link!) while I'm working. Its online. Its the BEST remedy ever. Nothing can beat this. But, I want this in MP3. So I can listen to it even if I'm offline. Anyone knows where I can get it?

peace.love.respect('cahaya')

That's made you feel the way you've never felt before
And I'm all you need and that you never want more
Then you'd say all of the right things without a clue
But you'd save the best for last
Like I'm the one for you
You should know that you're just a temporary fix
This is not routine with you it don't mean that much to me
oh just a filler in the space that happened to be free
How dare you think you'd get away with trying to play me
-Adele, Best For Last

Itu Aku.

Menjadi si baju biru itu lebih baik.
Masa itu hatinya masih suci bersih.
Ada dendam. Tapi masih berbelas.

Manusia yang tak bersyukur. Itu aku.
Manusia yang mahu lebih. Itu juga aku.
Manusia yang rasa ego. Itu aku lagi.
Manusia yang kejam. Itu masih lagi aku.

Manusia yang tidak ada rasa bersalah. Itu aku.
Manusia yang tak kenal Dia. Itu masih aku.
Manusia yang biadab. Itu juga, itu juga aku.
Manusia yang bukan manusia. Itu memang aku.

Bukan bangga tapi sedar.
Bukan iri tapi simpati.
Bukan menagih tapi memberi.

Terima kasih untuk peringatan ini.
Terima kasih semua.
Terima kasih untuk rahmat dan nikmat ini.
Terima kasih kamu.
Alhamdulillah.

Maafkan aku Tuhan.
Aku lupa bersyukur.
Maafkan aku semua.
Aku lupa aku juga seperti kamu.
Maafkan atas semua salahku.
Aku lupa aku ini bukan istimewa.
Maafkan atas semua dosaku pada kamu.
Aku lupa siapa diri aku.

peace.love.respect('cahaya')

Broken dreams, broken dreams
hoping someday you’ll see me
Sky is grey, sky is grey
but I dancing in the rain
Live this way, live this way
will you remember my name?
Live a lie, live a lie
why don’t you ask yourself why…
- ZeeAvi, The Story

The Biggest Loser.

The Biggest Loser is a life-changing unscripted US series by NBC in which everybody ‘loses' to win. The reality show challenges and encourages severely overweight contestants to undergo strenuous physical and mental challenges in order to shed pounds. The one who loses the most not only wins a grand cash prize USD$100,000 but also gains a healthy body.

And now they coming to Asia. The Biggest Loser Asia audition in Malaysia will be on 1st August 2009 at Fitness First, The Curve. They will select 30 contestants across 20 Asian territories.

I've read on the internet that they will select two contestants from each country. Meaning that, there will be two contestants from Malaysia.

Just so you know, I'll be auditioning for this. Wish me luck. Lotsa lotsa luck!


peace.love.respect('cahaya')

But I should thank you for
Taking my blindfold off now
I ain't jaded no more, no more
And I take pride in being the one that said goodbye
That could only mean I am me, once more
You would turn your head the other way
So you won't have to listen to what I have to say
You assume that I needed you
But you didn't realize that I needed no one but myself
I needed no one but myself
- ZeeAvi, I'm me Once More

If Only I Could Turn Back Time.

The idea of a time machine by Warner Bro's.
It was for the movie 'The Time Machine'.
Looks promising.

I'm sure you guys/gals had seen 'Back to the Future' trilogy, right? For those who never watch this trilogy, please Google it. Or you can download it through torrent. Ops!

I met an old friend over coffee at Oldtown Jalan Kuching yesterday. We went to the same school. We shared same memories. We shared almost everything; stories, books, tumblers, and even shoes. We got lost in contact for almost 10 years before I met him again through Facebook. Thanks to the technology!

We reminisced how good it was back then. We don't have to work. We don't have to pay anything. We just having fun as teenagers and students. We don't care what happen around us. We were too busy chasing fun.

He came out with a silly idea about building a time machine. "Tell me when its done. I wanna be one of the tester," I said. His cheerful face suddenly turned to a sullen one. He began his words slowly.

He really wants to go back to year 1999 where he first got his driving license. He killed a pregnant woman back then by accident. It was after 2 days he got his license. He really wish that he could turn back time and let his friend drive on that day. He did not know that his stubbornness could hurt someone else. Not until that very 2nd day. He even can't drive until now. He travels by taxi. He hates anyone driving above 70km/h. I'm myself got scolded by him whenever he feels I'm driving too fast (it was 40km/h, okay) yesterday.

I feel sorry for him. And I hope he will be okay in time.

The original idea back then. I don't put so much of hope on this one.
I don't even think it can make it to kedai depan tu.

If I could travel back in time, I wanna be in 1997. Those were my proud years. I love myself, my family and people around me. All I care about back then was books. And only books. I enjoyed every bit of my day. I slept with a smile on my face. And had a good laugh out loud any chance I've got. I don't wanna change any of it. I just want to enjoy it one more time.

If you have the chance, when you want it to be? What you gonna change?

**This is only a discussion. I know it's impossible.

Hope you guys/gals can be open minded about it. Cheers!**
**All images taken from Google.com**

peace.love.respect('cahaya')

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would stay for the night
For the night...

Judgemental YOU.

True enough. Not any different. ;)

Again, Wrong Judgment!

Taken from Google.com

I tend to do wrong judgment all the time. In fact, I've made one just now. I believe honesty is the best policy and that's what I did. I'm wrong. I'm so wrong.

How to make it right when the right thing you did just plain wrong? How to be right then?

I find myself kinda accident-prone lately. I almost get into an accident this morning. It happened few times. Few times, all in one morning.

peace.love.respect('cahaya')

Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt?
You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so
You already know I'm not attached to material
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love

Chasing Pavements.

Love isn't torture. Love isn't selfish. Love isn't hurtful. Love isn't cruel. If you do feel any or all of this, that's mean the one that you hold one right now isn't love.

Love is beautiful. Love is freedom. Love is sweet. Love is sacrifice. Love is all the good things you can or cannot describe with words. If you have it right now to your possession, lovers, keep on the road you're on. If not, it's better to let it go. After all, love means letting go. If it's meant to be yours, it will be yours eventually. It's no point to keep pushing your luck or chasing pavements. You might as well giving up and move on.

I chose to give up and moving on. Hopefully.

peace.love.respect('cahaya')

I've made up my mind,
Don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong, I am right
Don't need to look no further,
This ain't lust
I know this is love
But, if I tell the world
I'll never say enough
Cos it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do
If I end up with you
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements
Even if it leads nowhere
I build myself up
And fly around in circles
Watin' as my heart drops
And my back begins to tingle
Finally, could this be it

Jodoh.

Taken from Google.com

Do you believe in 'Jodoh'? Me? I kinda believe that all; 'Jodoh', 'Ajal' and 'Maut' are already been written in our 'book'. The 'book' that have our stories in it, all the ups and downs, all the episodes, all everything.

I want to believe that the one that I'm dating right now is my 'jodoh'. Is he? I don't know. Part of me says yes. And the other says otherwise. It's not that I don't have faith in him. I just don't have faith in me. I'm afraid after we move on to the next level, there's another different story has been written. I'm afraid that he's not the one. Or I make the wrong choice.

People around me said that there's no right and wrong answer about this. What I have to do is move on to the next level and see how is it goes. That's what I fear most. What if it turns bad? What if he don't love me anymore in the future? And the list of bad things goes on.

One thing I know for sure, all have been written in our 'book'. If he's meant for me, he will be mine. And if he's not, I hope I will find another. I pray to Allah it won't happen that way. I hope HE will guide me. I hope HE shows me the way.

peace.love.respect('cahaya')

Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah, dalam tidurmu
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu, yang mungkin bisa kau rindu
Karena, langkah merapuh, tanpa dirimu
Oh karena, hati telah letih
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu, yang selalu bisa kau sentuh
Aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku, selalu memujamu
Tanpamu, sepinya waktu, merantai hati
Oh bayangmu, seakan-akan
Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yang memanggil, rinduku, padamu
Seperti udara yang ku hela kau se-lalu ada

The Not-So Movie Marathon.

I've seen two movies this week. You know, the so-called can't-wait movies; Transformers 2 and Ice Age 3.

Overall, it was entertaining. I had a good laugh. But I'm not enjoying both of it so much tho'. Maybe my mood affect the whole experience. I can't hardly remember how the story goes. Ouch!

Please tell me how it goes. Tell me how you think about Transformers 2 and Ice Age 3. I would love to hear from you. Thanks.

I had good time with blogger Farah last Thursday at Alamanda. We went out for lunch and Ice Age 3 later. :) Thanks Farah for a good day. :)

Farah at Rasa Foodcourt, Alamanda

peace.love.respect('cahaya')

Heaven forbid you end up alone and don't know why
Hold on tight wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright
It feels good. Is that reason enough for you.
It feels good. Is that reason enough for you.
Heaven forbid you end up alone and don't know why
Hold on tight wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright
Heaven forbid you end up alone and don't know why
Hold on tight wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright

Love and Lie.

But you taught me otherwise. You taught me everything.
Thank ALLAH I found you. ;)

You is YOU. All of you here. Thanks pee-ple! ;)

The Break Up.

I'm single. So this break up is not a normal break up. It's friendship. Someone dearie chose to break our 'ship' via SMS yesterday.

He said he will leave me. He said he will leave everyone. And this wasn't the first time he said it.

Even it wasn't the first time he said it, I still hurt by the SMS. I tried to ignore. I tried not to bother. But I'm human with feelings. And of course, I feel sad. I remember the day he asked again, "So, I'm your friend ke bukan?" after several quarrel we had. And only God knows how often we did that.

"Of course I'm your friend," and I will always be. No matter how many times he try to break up with me. No matter how hard he try to be away from me. I will always be here. I will always by his side. Just holler when you need me dear.

But I still think that I deserve better than just a SMS, don't you think so?

peace.love.respect('cahaya')

Bila saja halangan menimpa
Kerna cinta ada ku tetap setia
Hanya dikau dan asmara
Membuat hidupku bagai dalam syurga
Biar masa berganti masa
Biar pun musim berganti musim
Telah kukatakan padamu oh sayang
Hanya kuasa Tuhan dapat memisahkan